Underneath the torment of my exams, I regret to say that I had almost completely forgotten about the existence of this blog. In fact, it seems the thought of it hadn’t crossed my mind for almost a month – I must admit, I didn’t realise that much time had elapsed, how time flies when your head is buried in a book…
Over the course of the past 30 days, I have been both incredibly stressed and tired, yet also quite excited about the future and the coming months. As someone who never does well at exams, no matter how hard they try, exam period is like my version of living hell – (over 60 hours spent on cell biology revision, yet I walked out of the exam 1/3rd of the way through). The impending doom of discovering how much my average has suffered is nail biting stuff, but alas life’s too short to be worrying about things that can be rectified.
Something’s changed this year in comparison to previous summers. I’m a lot more relaxed and content with myself this year than I’ve ever been before. The realisation that I’m not going to die and that the world shall not end if I don’t pass these exams might have something to do with that feeling. Maybe it’s part of growing older, but my feelings of anxiety seem to have dissipated to a certain extent. I’ve come to realise that almost everything is fixable. You can get to where you want to be. It may take you longer than expected, and you may not follow the exact path you wanted to, but you’ll get there. Perseverance is key.
Recently, I’ve discovered this overwhelming motivation to do things. The next few weeks are immensely busy – on top of my dissertation work and a part-time job, I’ve also got a volunteering placement with Heysham Nature Reserve in Lancashire as well as at my university, and plans to visit the National Oceanography Centre in Liverpool for research seminars. On top of this, I’m back to my editorial position on the Lancaster University BLS blog and I’ve applied for a marine internship that I’d be thrilled to get – fingers crossed!
It seems to me that I’ve started becoming proactive in making my ambitions a reality. No longer am I just sitting in bed all day, watching Blue Planet and dreaming of being a scientific broadcaster and scientist, but I’m actually researching and taking the necessary steps for that to be my life one day. Like many students, I’ve gone through periods of depression and anxiety, and to feel like I’m coming to the end of that, is genuinely a fantastic feeling. Don’t get me wrong, I still have my off days, but I feel like I’m somewhat in control of that now.
Of course, there is also the tremendous task of writing articles for this blog. Over the coming months, I have a number of ideas and plans that I want to curate for my website. I’ve been busy diligently contacting NGOs and scientists who I admire and am inspired by their work, who hopefully will work with me. The world of environmental science and conservation is continually changing and improving, and sometimes it’s hard to keep up with all of the developments. As someone who is a bit of a geek, (actually a massive geek), when it comes to the environment, I’m so excited to share with you the ideas I have and hopefully inspire you to go out there and do your bit for the environment this summer.
(P.S How cool is the cover photo? I found it on Google and just thought it was the coolest thing)